I'm venting. Don't be mad.

Disclosure:

Everyone remember this my journal and I'm writing straight from my heart, So read at your own risk.

 What is love for me right now? It's when you shed tears for someone but you still care for them, It's when all he does is ignore you but you still long for him. It's when he starts loving someone else, and yet you manage to throw a smile on your face and find the courage to say "I'm happy for you" I'm going to smile and make him think I'm happy. I'm going to laugh so that he doesn't have to see me cry. I'm going to let him go, and even if it kills me- I'm going to smile through it all.

 People say I don't know what love is. People say I'm too young to love. But here's what I say, Love comes with experience. And as you grow older your ability to love someone grows much larger and you grow to have a much better understanding of it.
 But that doesn't mean you can't be in love at 15. It's just at you're own level and rate. Every teenage girl comes across a nicholas sparks romance novel at one point and they see that you can fall in love and through hard ache, it'll all work out. But I've learned it doesn't always work out the way you want it to. Sometimes, you love someone but you have to let them go. Sometimes, even when it tears you up inside you have to be happy for them and let them move on, because "if it is meant to be, it is up to me."
But this time it's not meant to be. And now your just somebody that I used to know. 

There are some people in this world that you know you will never be able to forget about.

Maddy Lant:
She's a champ. I love her.
I can talk to her about anything and she can do the same with me. When ever something interesting happens in one of the two of our lives, the other is the first person to know. I dont know what I would do with out her and I'm so blessed to have her in my life.

(Plus she's absolutely gorgeous)

Jade Smoot: 

What a kid. He really is my best friend. 

I love him and I love his family as well which is a MAJOR plus. I can talk to him about anything and he can do the same with me. He always tells me what's on his mind and I'm there with open ears. He's had a huge impact on my life. He always makes me want to be a better person and I'll forever be grateful to him for that. Plus he play's baseball. Gotta love that. Love him:)

(We're also two of the funniest people when we're together)

Kylee Karren:

Funniest girl I know. I adore her.

She's always been there for me and I love talking to her. She give's way good advice and is the least judge mental person I have ever met. I have had my best midnight phone call's with her. Some of which have changed my life. I am so grateful for her and I love her to death.

 (if you can't tell from this picture, she's.. AWESOME.

Brayden Cox:

He's a stud.

I can honestly say this kid has changed my life and has taught me so much more than I ever thought he would. He pulls out my emotions and knows how to make me smile more than anyone in this whole world. I'll always be there for him and he'll always be there for me. He is one of the funniest people I know. And he plays baseball as well. I guess you could say I get along with baseball players? Close of far apart (hypethetically/ friendship wise.)  I'll always love him:)

Kami Reiser:

She is amazing.

This girl will never know how much she has helped me throughout my life. I've known her since I was just a little one. We met at dance and it could not have been better. She was my best friend and always will be. Even though we don't talk every day we will always be closer than sisters. I love her:)

 

(She literally exudes light)

Conclusion, I love my friends. Im so glad they came into my life. There amazing and I dont know what I would do without them.

So thanks guys, Your the best:)

Make way for the Drill Team.

I love these girls more than life.
They basically make me who I am. Im with them.. CONSTANTLY.
So I have decided that they deserve more than anyone to make it onto this little blog of mine.

Just so everybody knows we have our Drill parent/friend showcase next Thursday night and.. Its gonna be AMAZING:) so.. COME!!

Determined.

I am determined to make this weekend a good one. Better than the last. Playin with my oaky timp girl's and could not be more excited. I love them more than life and no matter how hard I or anyone else try's you cant help but laugh and smile when you're with them. I adore them all, they are some of the cutest, funnest, funniest, kindest girls I know and I could not be more thrilled to call them my friends:)

Chocolate Ice Cream.

What in the world would I do with out this stuff?
Greatest thing ever.






It's my happy food:)
Doesn't it look delicious?

I'm in love with him

Remember that boy I told you about? In "you and I walk a fragile line"? Cannon? Well, everyone, I love him. And it's the worst. We're just friends. And even saying friends is almost a little far fetched.When we're alone it could not get better. We smile, laugh, love and talk.

Weird right? That's what I thought too. But at the moment, when it was all happening and right in front of my face, it felt so right. I had no backbone to say no to this boy that had loved me and hurt me so many times before. Because it's easy to tell someone you love them, but meaning it, is a completely different story. Because, as all of you guys will soon learn I forgive people as easily as you cut butter. 

How many times is this going to have to happen for Tiff to learn her lesson? My friends ask me the question daily. I get texts saying "Tiff, he's playing you. You need take him out of your life and then not let him back in." And yet I do let him back in. EVERYTIME. And every time I do, my friends say, "So ill be expecting a call this weekend from a crying Tiffany around saturday, Sound right?" It's almost a complete joke now. 

But the truth is, Im in love with him.

 Im in love with the way he makes me feel when I'm around him.

The way he makes me smile. 

The way he squeezes my hand when its cold outside and tells me he loves me in our own little language:)

The way he makes me laugh the way he plays with his hat when he's nervous, or pulls a joke in that awkward moment that hasn't happened yet, because he is possibly the least awkward person ever. 

Im in love with the way he plays with me, tickles me, jokes with me. 

I love it all.

I love his smile and his laugh and his advice.

I love it. 

I love him.

And no matter what happens I always will.

 

Daddy's Little Girl

I love my dad. Its as simple as that.
He's the greatest guy I know.
He does everything a Dad can do. He takes care of me. He listens to me. In the most sincere way. He loves me and never lets me forget it. He teaches me that I'm important and worth more than I know. He encourages me to be better. I could never thank him enough for everything that he does for me.
He's my best friend:)
I love you Daddy.