2011 in a nutshell

It started out sitting on a piano bench with Mandy Marie White and Brayden Cox singing Taylor Swift. I knew that it would be good year right at 12:01. When you start out singing love songs with your two favorite people how could it not be a fantastic year?
January- Was a complete blur but thoughts coming through
my head because of it are rather positive
February- Was the beginning of my happiness
March- Was jampacked full of love
April- Made me happy
May- Was full of smiles and laughter
June- Was full of adventure
July- Started great and ended awful
August- Was good
September- Was bad. But it always is. Atleast for the last
2 years it has been. Starting at a new school is never good.
October- Broke me into tiny little pieces
November- Was full of regret and tears
December- Put me back together agian. The puzzle is complete.
Finally.

Memorable Moments

-singing to Taylor Swift at the top of our lungs

-dancing in the rain

-Had a first love

-Wayyy to much friend drama

-Started this fantastic little blog of mine

-Found my true friends

-Had my first kiss

-Pulled my first all nighter

-Got caught by the coppers

-Layed under the stars with mr. Teyton Smoot talking for hours on end

- Laughed about the dumbest things

- went on way to many walks with Kylee Jean

- Went to efy

-Had my ovaries burst in the middle of nationals

-Got a scholarship at every competition I went to

-Got my phone stolen

-Learned about drill

-Became a Vikette

-Made one million new friends

-Shed to many tears over a stupid boy.

-Decided I'm going to be a makeup artist

 -stopped dancing at studio 1

- Through a suprise party for miss maddy lant

-Jade Smoot became my best friend

-Fell in love with the 40's

-Watched Pearl Harbor everynight for six months

-Went to girl's camp and had some of the most spiritual moments of my life

-Learned how to trust

-Strengthened my relationship with my parents (they're now 2 of my best friends)

-Went on Monster ( a roller coaster at knott's berry farms.) It was the scariest thing I have ever done

- Recieved a 35 page text

Over all I had a fantstic year with many growing moments, Lots of smiles, And to many laughs to count

On the walls of my brain

Sometimes, a girls just gotta vent.
p.s. this blog was made so that I can write my thoughts and feelings down.
so, if you dont like them don't read it. sincerely, me.

1. My family, is absolutely amazing and I am having a fantastic time up here in the small town of heber stranded in this cabin. Really, I am.

But here's the thing. Im also a teenage girl. With friends. That I highly enjoy to be with. Especially on new year's eve. At parties. Which I will infact not be attending this time around. I agree, it stinks. but lets make the best of this right?

2. There's this boy. That really likes me. and I really liked him. But guess what? im a teenage girl. And I tend to change my mind. OFTEN. So when I tell boys I want to take it slow and that I DO NOT want a boyfriend, I tend to mean it. I usually don't say things that I want to go unheard. But guess what fellow bloggers? Boys dont always pick up everything you put down. So when you say "lets take it slow" They think, lets push a little harder so I can get this girl to fall in love with me. So they want nothing to do with the whole taking it slow thing. But guess what everybody!? Thats not what I meant. At all. We literally mean it. Because when you go all Gungho on us.. it usuall tends to..turn us away, not on.

3. Why does my cousin just so happen to have the same name as my past lover. (that im over. I promise.)

*which by the way! we're friends again. And sometimes we even talk to eachother. Just to talk. Not even to fight. Do you have any idea how long I have been waiting for this day to come? I missed talking to him like this. without hesitation just saying what I felt. Just because I needed someone to talk to. This is the way it should have been a really long time ago. But hey! I'm not complaing.* It stinks having that little bugger around the cabin though, because everytime someone calls his name a slideshow of the best months of my life starts in my head. But atleast now its in a positive matter and its not like a knife wrenching through my heart...;)

4. Dancing. really dancing. I miss it. like crazy. Yelling "YAH!" oh "HUH" in the middle of a dance, is not normal. And definitely not normal, real dancing. And who ever made it up probably has something highly wrong with them. Because im pretty sure dancing was not made to scare the crap out of your audience everytime you kick your leg. Therefore, don't be mad I might not be doing drill next year. Dont get me worng, I love all the girls and my coaches and I am so grateful for everything they do for me, But I just think that drill is not for me.

I am an artist. Not a robot.

p.s. I am super sorry that this was so long.

livin young wild and free

Sometimes we..
- Visit Lauren Wilson because her knee is the size of texas
- Watch a christmas story and laugh our heads off at a little boy rolling in the snow unable to get up due to his (lack of a better word) clothing
- Go to walker Wendy's and get 4 free drinks in a row and lots of hot chocolate and doughnuts. it's christmas break the hot chocolate was a given.
- Decide to go to Denny's at 2:30 in the morning and on the way see two huge guys hitting a "body" long johns filled with grass with machettes and bats then chasing us as we drive by. So we decided (as dumb as we are) to turn around and find out who it was. Have no fear it was just Brandon Fanaika and Mitchell Merril.
- Decide to hit up walmart. At 4a.m. And a cop stops us in the parking lot to ask us what in the world we are doing at four in the morning. Us: "officer we got hungry. We're the drill team and we're having a sleepover but we got hungry so we went to denny's to get some food and our parents had us come here to pick up stuff for breakfast"  Officer: "well did you steel anything?" Us: "of course not!" Officer: "do you know what curfew is? it's not even 11:30. It's 4 o'clock in the morning. But I guess your fine. I like the drill team. I don't like busting good girls. So you guys have fun."
Some times being on the drill team saves your butt.
- do some more rambuncsious things that no one needs to know about
- Head home and chat it up.

All nighters are my knew favorite thing.

Motha, Fatha, Broja, Sistas.

I love 'em. They are my best friends:)

steven and allie

Ali-cat

Tiff

Savannah banana

The Vincents

I'm willing to risk the cooties if you are.

It's good to feel like this:)

to feel like your walking on clouds.

And to always know that someone is there for you.

to look over and catch them smiling at you 

to have them whisper cute things in your ear

to wonder if he ever stops to think "man, i miss her"

and you know the answer is yes.

To randomly have a smile pop onto your face because he popped into your mind. 

If you haven't felt like this, Your missin out on the most incredible feeling in the world. 

how can you be grumpy when the sun shines out your bum?

Happiness. The best feeling in this world. 

I truly haven't felt this happy in.. 150 days. That's how long I have been with out him.

I am in love with the way I feel. I never want to go back.

I am thrilled to be over him.

And thrilled to have moved on. New boys are the bestest.

Did I just say new boys? yes. I did. There is a new one. And he makes me feel like a million bucks.

He has a best friend which is fine. I adore her. And I'm no taking him away from her. And we don't even like eachother I would be lying if I said that I don't like him. But nonetheless He makes me happier than I have been in a very long time. He knows how to make me laugh and smile. I'm constantly talking to him. And every single time my phone buzzes I secretly hope it's him. And 99% of the time it is.

The other day my little sister looked at me and said "Tiff what is up with you? It's like your all happy all the time now." she said it like I was freak. But I was thrilled to hear it:) 

Being happy is decision. And I have never been more happy about the one i made.

"Being happy doesnt mean that

 everything is perfect. It means 

 that you've decided to look beyond

the imperfections." -Unknown

It's my choice

So, my last two posts have been a little.. negative.
And I hate it.
So here comes the good and the new:)
Its my choice to feel the way I do. So I've decided that i choose to be happy.
Because at one point or another you have to realize that some people can and should stay in your heart but not in your life. 

Getting home.

So I just got home from preference.
And it was a blast.
(pictures will be up tomorrow)
Im so stoked for when I turned sixteen and i'll have a date and.. A partner to dance with during the slow dances.. which were completely awkward but slightly hilarious.
my night was ALMOST perfect.
But I really wish I didn't have to see you hold her the way you used to hold me.
Or see you making eye contact with me and not saying a word.
That's the absolute worst.
Your the worst.
And right now I just want to cry.

Sure, take my leg. You already have everything else.

I'm a teenage girl.
I fell in love with you.
You said you would hold me forever. How many girls have you said that to?
You promised to never hurt me. obviously that was a lie.
You told me you loved me. everyday.
You were my best friend.
and then you changed. everything changed.
You hurt me.
You pulled and tugged me back into you.
You kissed me.
Then acted like it never happened.
You told me you loved me. And only me. but you told her the same thing the same night.
Did you tell yourself and her you loved her just to forget me?
Well it worked.
And yet you still ask for me back.
You still ask for my trust.
For my friendship.
And when you really need it my love.

And the silly thing is,  I give it. I give you it all. My everything. And you never give it back. So sure, Take the last part of me I have. You already have the rest.

Stealing a post is what i love most

This is from miss... Drumroll please, Phoebe Brimhall.
I know this is long but get over it the guys worth your time want you to know it.
Girls Need To Realize: (WRITTEN BY A GUY) We guys don't care if you talk to other guys. We don't care if you're friends with other guys. But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there. We don't care if a guy calls/texts you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 AM that it can't wait till the morning. Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you. The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence. Yeah, you can quote me. Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take advantage of the mood I'm in. Let us pay for you! Don't feel bad. We enjoy doing it. It's expected. Smile and say 'thank you.' Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed. You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own. We like you for who you are and not what you are. Honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up. Don't take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing; see the beauty in it. Don't get angry easily. Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hot Chris Brown, Channing Tatum, or Justin Bieber, is in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that. Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful' I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy' or whatever else you can think of. On the other hand, I'm not saying I woulndn't like it ether. ;) Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change!!!!! Ditch his sorry butt, the sad disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect. Someone who will honor your morals. Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest. Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes. Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel. Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes and say 'I love you' and actually mean it. Give the nice guys a chance. Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this. Life is too short to complain about everything that comes your way so stop and smell the roses in life because you might never have another time to take it. Take your time because they are all different in every way. Take chances in life; if it doesn't work out then fine. There are always more roses to smell.

Some people like getting ready everyday. Not me.

So, Heres the thing. Today and yesterday were the first times I haven't worn a hoody and jeans to school in.. 2 weeks. And within those 2 weeks I have worn my hair down once.. Am I an awful person?

Todays outfit consisted of skinny's, Brown 3 quarter length modbod, Combat boots, Soft as a kitten colorful scarf, THE gold earings, And the "tiffany Bun". 

Im fine with it. really. But should i be? probably not. Should i care what people think of me? yes. Do i? no. Which i guess is just whatever. My clothes are me. And i love 'em. My hair? well preferably it would be down and curled and beautiful more often but.. cut me some slack, I wake up at four thirty every morning and have practice and get hot and sweaty for 2 hours before the majority of you even wake up. Plus its in a suuuper awkward stage right now, so.. Its fine. Love you all, Love tiffany sally(:

Moments

Moments are the seconds that seem like hours.
The time you have to make a decision.
At any given moment, you have the power to say:
This is not how the story is going to end.
And always remember, Your not going to remember your day,
You'll only remember moments.
So make every single one count.

The amazing moments in my life;
Talking on the phone until five in the morning
Resting on someone's chest
Buying AMAZING clothes that you found on sale
Realizing everything is going to be okay
Finally feeling like you belong
Meeting people that end up changing your life
The hug that make a not so great day, perfect
Long walks
Making eye contact with that boy
Dancing like no. body. is. watching

Everyone has atleast one best friend.

but.. I have two.. That I want to talk about today that I haven't already.
The best kind of a best friend is the one that has been there your WHOLE life.
Cole Bradburn,
This kid has been there for me ever since I was baby sized. We have been through every stage and some.. multiple times. We have liked each other, hated each other, been the other ones absolute best friend, gone for a year with out talking, and so on and so forth. I would bet that he knows me better than anyone else in this world. I love him to death. He's my best friend, even though we don't talk every day I feel a stronger bond to him than anyone else in this world. I can tell him anything and I don't know what I would do without him.

Griffin Bodine,
Griff I have literally known him since the moment I came out of the womb. Not even kidding. He was my  first kiss, we were two. He has been one of my best friends my whole life. He is one one of the best people that I know, And is one of those people that you know would never hurt a fly. I love him to death and I can trust him with the world. I don't know what I would do without him either.

Yes, that's me in the background.

Love is lovely

Here's what I think about love

Chapter 1:
Love is all about caring and sharing its about having all your dreams come true.
Its about having special memories with a special person.
Love is having someone there for you at all times no matter what.
It's having the most random inside jokes.
Love is being with someone that makes you finally feel complete.
Chapter 2:
Love doesn't have to be about loving someone it can be about loving something.
Something that makes you feel so good inside you can't help but smile.
That makes you feel like a teenage girl meeting Justin Bieber.
or
A Three year old in a candy shop all night long.

Love is happiness