i love what i do.

So, 2 thursday's ago I was injured. We were doing headstands and when I pushed up out of it all the muscles in the back of my shoulder were pulled to the point where i couldn't move my shoulder. And i dropped to the floor. with my season... over.
 Now listen, Region at the time was in 2 weeks state 2 and a half nationals in a month.
not a lot of time. at all.
I went to practice that night having no clue what would happen.
I went, tired, grouchy, and not wanting to run and clean all of our dances for the 1,000,000th time.
little did I know i would never be dancing to those girls again!
so, I and my team said lots of prayers, read lots of scriptures, went to physical therapy every day for 2 hours for 2 weeks.
AND GUESS WHAT.
this girl right here is better enough to do character at region. Count my many blessings.

this is the dance i will happily be performing

finally. you understand.

I feel absolutely awful that you feel like this

but honestly, at least now, someone knows how i feel.

how empty it feels. 

at least now I have someone to talk to about it all. 

that as we talk, we LITERALLY read each others minds.

and now, we both feel like that picture up there. 

bahahaha that picture, classic.

and pinterest i love you for making that. 

ha i love you girly. 

Kinda obsessed.

I have most definitely done that.

dancer.

flawless.

me. to a T.

she may be crazy but she's gorgeous.

i love yellow(:

bhahahahahahahaha

color's much?

i just want a wrap around porch.

she is adorable.

STUNNING.

You make my heart melt like a popsicle on the 4th of July

It happened.
The BOY!!! not the boy you think. a new boy. 
He talked to me today. And oh how happy I was.
You have to understand, I have known him (who he was) since the fifth grade.
I saw him dancing at a dance competition. No he is not gay.
And i kid you not.
He made my heart melt like a popsicle on the fourth of july.
I've been in love ever since.
He's a year older than me.
And has ridiculously blonde curly hair that you just want to put your fingers through.
And aaahhhhhhh.. I love him.
And yes, he only asked me if I knew what day christmas break started and ended.
Which by the way I had no clue. I made it up. I had to answer. I just couldn't pass that up.
But none the less he could have asked anyone in there. (We were in a packed computer lab.)
I kept the conversation going of course. And come to find out he.has.always.known.who.i.am.
Wow.. who would have known.
I feel like my heart is going to burst.

count your many blessings 1..2..3

Choose to take a chance or you 

will never change.

Today I woke up, And said to myself  "I can't do this anymore"

Do what? 

Wake up at 4:30 in the morning just to take a shower so I can be out the door by 5:30 looking pretty enough to sweat it all off, put it back on and face another day of school. with a smile on my face.

I hopped in the shower tried pulling my fingers through my matted hair due to the gel put in it from the performance the night before.
Scrubbing away I decided to say a prayer. A morning prayer. (which I'm going to be completely honest with you. I rarely if ever do that) But I needed someone to talk to and no one else was awake but the big man upstairs. I closed my eyes and started with im really sorry I haven't been as close to you as I usually am. Something's been pulling me away and I'm not really sure what it is. 

don't worry everyone I'm not doing anything wrong. 

I feel like lately all I have thought about is myself. and no one else and I hate it. 

It's pulling me away from everything that I love the most. 

I have to choose to to take a chance so I can change.

I have to look at life with a different perspective and look at all the blessings that I have in my life. 

NOW. Lets look at this morning one more time.

I wake up at four thirty in the morning to take a shower.

in a shower with clean water and heat and as much as i want of it.

 I get to dance my little heart out, doing what  i love, with the people that i love.

And then! get an education for free with teachers and people that care about me and my success. 

I might have even had a conversation with him today. Things are looking bright my friends.

Plus, I have a direct line straight to my heavenly father, whenever I want.

Never forget just how many blessings you have and to SMILE!

Freedom

Freedom

Something every teenager in this world wants.

What gives you freedom?

Being 16 and having a license. 

I am 4 months away. And oh how I can not wait. 

What does freedom entice?

Being able to come home, when you want.

Being able to go where you want when you want.

Being able to do as you please

What keeps you from this? 

Parental units.

No license.

Now, I will admit that they are only doing it because they love you.

And know what is best for you.

But sometimes it stinks.

I love my parents, I do. 

But being stuck at the house with nowhere to go.. stinks. 

What is the real point of this post?

I am sick of being fifteen. 

Come on April 22 come a little faster!

I need my license.

p.s. I really want summer to be here. I miss it like crazy.

and there's not even any snow on the ground. 

There fore the cold is worthless.